I ran my
fingers across Aunt Ninnee's quilt. The fabric was soft. The quilt had been
around for over 100 years. It had been cared for by many great women from the
Benberry family. There was a special way to care for the quilt; and in each
generation, someone was carefully chosen to learn how to care for the quilt. It
was finally my turn to care for the quilt.
Aunt Ninnee
rested in her bed. I sat in the chair beside her bed. I watched her lay there,
breathing in and out slowly. I didn't want the responsibility of caring for the
quilt.
I had told
Aunt Ninnee many a time before, but she would just shake her head and say,
"Baby, it's your turn."
I watched
the old woman's labored breathing. She was dying. She knew and I knew it. She
refused to go to the hospital to be examined. Aunt Ninnee was a stubborn old
woman.
She told me,
"I am dying at my house, covered by this quilt, just like every Benberry
woman before me. That's the right I have as the quilt bearer. One day, you will
have that honor, even though you don't want it."
All I could
do was shake my head. I was stuck in my predicament. I had to stay by Aunt
Ninnee's side until she passed on to glory and then become the bearer of the
quilt. I began to think about the history of Aunt Ninnee's quilt. It was a rich
history
It has been
said that the history of the quilt started in 1906. The quilt was started with
a piece of cloth from the uniform of Howard Benberry, a black soldier who was
involved in the soldier riots in Brownsville, Texas. Howard Benberry's wife,
Pearl Benberry, started the quilt to remember her husband after his death. She
gathered piece of cloth from all the family members who was at Howard's
funeral. After each family member had given her a piece of fabric, the quilt
was larger than Pearl had expected. It was 39 inches by 75 inches. Pearl used
the quilt each night to cover up her only daughter, Edith.
As Edith
grew older, Pearl taught her how to continue the quilt, by collecting pieces of
fabric from various family members who sent them pieces of fabric. By 1908, the
quilt was the size that Pearl had wanted it to be, 60 inches by 80 inches. The
last thing Pearl did before she died in 1909 finish the quilt and teach her
daughter Edith how to care for the quilt.
The
tradition of passing the quilt down to a family member was started by Edith
Benberry-DuBois. As her daughters were born, one of them began to take an
interest in the quilt. Her second daughter, Harriet, would often ask her mother
about the quilt. Harriet asked her mother about the history of the quilt.
Edith's other daughters very rarely asked any questions about the quilt.
Harriet
would always watch her mother as she cleaned the quilt. Harriet would even help
her mother clean the quilt. Edith decided to let Harriet care for the quilt.
Edith talked to Harriet about caring for the quilt and passing the quilt down
to another female member of the family upon her death.
Edith said,
"This quilt will live on in our family. As each generation is born, one of
the female children will be chosen to care for the quilt. She will be taught
how to clean the quilt. She will be taught the history of the quilt. She will
be taught the tradition of the quilt."
Aunt Ninnee
grunted. I looked at her.
She turned
her head towards me and said, "What are you thinking about?"
I forced a
smile as I said, "This quilt. Why did you pick me? I don't want the
responsibility. What if I mess it up?"
It was as if
Aunt Ninnee had gotten a burst of strength. She sat up on her bed and stared at
me. She moved over on the bed and then motioned for me to come sit next to her.
As complied with the old lady's wish. She rubbed my back. Her old hands still felt
good. The love that flowed through her hands was still there, even though she
was dying.
Aunt Ninnee
rubbed my back, "Do you think I wanted this silly old thing?"
She raised
the quilt up and glared at it as if it were a dirty old rag. She put the quilt
back down and then lovingly rubbed it back into place.
She smiled,
"I hated this thing growing up. I had to spend my Saturday mornings with
Grandma Eunice, washing this thang. All the other children were out playing and
I was washing this thing on a scrub board, that old raggedy scrub board. I
tried to get Grandma Eunice to buy a new scrub board, but she just
wouldn't."
Aunt Ninnee
took a long deep breath. For the past two days, she couldn't say more than ten
words without losing her breath.
I wanted to
comfort my Aunt Ninnee, "You don't have to tell me about the quilt. Why
don't you just rest?”
Aunt Ninnee
made a face, "Child, where I am going, I will be resting for a long time.
Praise the Lord. Where was I?"
She paused
for a brief moment and then finished her story, "After Grandma Eunice
died, I realized the importance of this quilt. It wasn't just some old
collection of fabric anymore; it was my family's history; and Grandma Eunice
saw something in me that lead her to choose me to care for it. It was no longer
a responsibility, it was an honor."
Aunt Ninnee
coughed. I reached for the bottle of water that was sitting on the table next
to the bed. I helped her drink from the bottle.
She made a
face, "I hate these bottles."
I laughed.
Aunt Ninnee hated almost everything that had been created after the 1970s. It
was all we could do to get her to let us buy her a television. She still had
the one we bought her in 1985.
She refused
to let us buy her a newer model, by saying, "This one works just fine. I
can watch what I want to watch on this one."
Aunt Ninnee
grabbed my hand. I had gotten use to her doing that after 22 years of her
grabbing my hand. She moved my hand to the top of the quilt and placed it on
the piece of fabric from Howard Benberry's uniform.
She said,
"That piece of fabric started this whole thing. It's a wonder what can
happen with the smallest piece of faith, ain't it, Little Sue?"
I cringed. I
hated it when she called me that.
My name is
Suevina. I don't know how my father came up with that name. When the time I was
born, until this day, Aunt Ninnee has called me Little Sue.
She said,
"I can't pronounce that child's name, so I am gonna call her Little
Sue."
Aunt Ninnee
smiled as she moved my hand to a red piece of fabric. It was the biggest piece
of fabric on the quilt.
Aunt Ninnee
said, "Child, this one, is from Howard's daughter, Claudine. You know she
was a dance hall girl, shaking her tail for money. Lord have mercy. She wore a
fast-tail dress to the funeral. After she cut this piece, she almost didn't
have no dress left at all."
I laughed.
That dress got smaller and smaller each time Aunt Ninnee told that story.
The aged
woman moved my hand to a pink piece of fabric, "This here is Edda Mae's
baby blanket. The child died right in her mamma's arm. Mary labored all night
with that baby only to have her die. The only thing that comforted Mary was
this quilt. It was as if the quilt took the hurt away. Mary lay covered in this
quilt for three days, crying. After the third day, Mary got up out of her bed
and then went on with her life. There is life in this quilt."
Aunt Ninnee
refused to quit talking.
She had to
continue on with her story, "This white piece right here, it is from
Victor he was a nurse in a local hospital. He was one of the first professional
men in our family. This black pinstripe piece right here is from Rev. Gregory
Tatum. He was the first preacher in our family. I heard he could call fire down
from Heaven just like Elijah."
Aunt Ninnee
coughed again. I tried to get her to stop talking, but she refused, "You
wanted to know why I picked you. I am telling you why I picked you. See this
yellow polka dot piece. That's from my family line. Arthur Brewer, don't ask me
his relation to me, was on his death bed. He asked to be covered up with the
quilt. After a week, he got well. No one knows how. He just got up and walked
off his death bed. There is healing in this quilt. I can keep going
forever."
I blew a
breath. Aunt Ninnee patted me on my leg, "You are tired of me, aren't
you?"
I didn't say
a word. Aunt Ninnee smiled, "I know, baby. Your mama still ain't told
yet."
I looked
perplexed, "Old lady, what are you talking about?"
Aunt Ninnee
smiled again, "I may be old, but I am beautiful. You ain't gonna never be
this old, being so mean."
I laughed.
Aunt Ninnee
turned her face towards the wall. I thought she was finally through talking. I
started to get off the bed.
Aunt Ninnee
grabbed my arm, "Where you going?"
I didn't
have time to answer because Aunt Ninnee said, "I ain't finished my
story." I sat back down on the bed.
Aunt Ninnee
reached up and rubbed my face, "You a pretty chile. I was at your birth.
Did you know that?"
I stared at
Aunt Ninnee, "No ma’am. I didn't."
I didn't
know much about my birth, other than there were some complications. No one ever
said anything about it.
Aunt Ninnee
continued her story, "I stayed with your mother while she had you. You
were a hard pregnancy for your mother. She had to be in the bed most of the
time she was pregnant with you. I let her sleep with the quilt most of the
time. Whenever she had that quilt on her, you would move yourself so that you
could be next to the quilt. No matter where you were, you always came up to the
quilt. Everybody could see you plain as day, too, just poking yourself
out."
Aunt Ninnee
paused and then continued on, "You been stubborn since you were born. You
refused to come out. You were two weeks late. I still ain't figured out how Doc
Green let you stay in as long as you did. Your mother was stubborn. She wanted
you to come out on your own, but you wouldn't. Doc Green finally decided to
make you come out. He tried to persuade you to come out with medicine, but you
just wouldn't come out. After two days, he decided to take you out. But your
mother didn't want surgery. Just stubborn."
Aunt Ninnee
seemed to be gaining strength as she told her story, "They called me to
the hospital cause your mother was near bout to have a fit. The Lord said to me
plain as day, 'Take the quilt with you.' I did. When I get to the hospital,
your mother is there throwing a fit, looking a fright. You were poking your
head out, making your mother stomach look big as a watermelon. I declare you
was laughing at all of us grown folk wrestling with your mother. I finally got
her calmed down and told Doc Green to leave her alone. You were still there
poking your head out. I looked at your mother's stomach right at you and said,
'If you don't brang your stubborn hide out of there now, I'm a come in there
and get you!' You moved, too. Your mother went into labor right after I said
that to you."
Aunt Ninnee
looked up at me and smiled. She didn't have any children of her own, but she
had raised enough children to be considered a mother. I know I thought of her
more as my mother, than I did my own mother.
Aunt Ninnee
touched my face again, "You pretty, even though you came out looking ugly.
Your mother wrestled with you for over 15 hours. You started out and then
stopped in the middle and stayed there. Doc Green was looking in your mother.
He could see you, but you wouldn't come out. Doc Green got a machine and looked
at you. You were stuck and couldn't move. Doc Green got that fork looking
contraption and pulled you out. The old fool squished your head. You were a
sight."
Aunt Ninnee
laughed a hearty laugh. She reached over me for her bottle of water.
I leaned
back so she could get it and said, "I could have handed it to you."
Aunt Ninnee
huffed, "I ain't helpless."
I shook my
head. Aunt Ninnee finished drinking the water and handed me the bottle.
I didn't
take it from her, "I thought you weren't helpless."
Aunt Ninnee
made a face, "Quit being smart and put this thang up."
I took the
bottle from her hand and placed it on the table.
"Where
was I?" Aunt Ninnee didn't wait for me to respond, "Oh yea, you were
all squished up. Your mother was having a fit cause she wanted to see you and
Doc Green wouldn't let her. He was trying to get you to breathe right. You were
having a hard time. Between you and your mother, Doc Green had his hands full.
Finally, I told Doc Green to hand you to me and for him to take care of your
mother. I wrapped you up, nasty and all, in the quilt and rocked you. Before
too long, you were breathing right. After a few minutes, you started cooing up
a storm. You had the quilt in your hands, sucking on the edge of it. Right then
and there, I knew I was supposed to pass the quilt on to you."
Tears rolled
down my face. I never knew any of that story. Aunt Ninnee rubbed my hand gently
as I cried. I understood. I knew why I had spent all those Saturdays with Aunt
Ninnee, learning how to wash the quilt. I understood why Aunt Ninnee yelled at
the kids when they tried to take it outside and use it as a tent. I understood
everything.
I stopped
crying and kissed Aunt Ninnee on her forehead.
Aunt Ninnee
smiled, "Well baby, it's not Aunt Ninnee's quilt any more. It's Little
Sue's quilt now."
I smiled. It
didn't even bother me that the old woman had called me Little Sue. I was the
bearer of the quilt.
I stood up
from the bed. Aunt Ninnee gave no objection. I adjusted the quilt on Aunt
Ninnee's body. She looked so peaceful and calm. She didn't seem to be
breathing, so I felt for a pulse. There wasn't one. I let the tears roll down
my face as I took charge of the quilt, as I had been instructed to do.
I smiled as
I walked to the phone to call the doctor.
I thought to
myself, "The next time this story is told, it will be called 'Little Sue's
Quilt'."